Demi Lovato has shared wild details about herself in her new docu-series, “Dancing With the Devil,” which dropped on YouTube recently.
In this series, the singer spoke candidly about why she didn’t think she’d overdose back in 2018 despite mixing various types of drugs; this four-part series details Lovato’s journey to and after her near-fatal 2018 overdose.
In the two 20-minute episodes recently released, Lovato explained how she “crossed a line that I had never crossed in the world of addiction,” that when she relapsed after years of sobriety, she “just went to town.”
“I did drugs I’d never done before. I’d never done meth before, I tried meth. I mixed it with molly, with coke, weed, alcohol, OxyContin. That alone should have killed me,” she said in the first episode.
She admitted using heroin and crack cocaine recreationally after trying them when a dealer didn’t have her usual preferred combination of cocaine and Xanax. Her addiction to both drugs got so bad, she said, that she was a heavy user of both after her Tell Me You Love Me tour and that she even once interrupted a game night to quietly take the drugs in a friend’s bathroom.
After her overdose in 2018, she said she woke up in the hospital “shocked” because she’d thought you could only overdose if you were injecting the drugs.
“I am not saying that I have not used needles, but that night I wasn’t injecting it, I was smoking it. Which is another reason why I was so shocked when I woke up in the hospital because I was, like, ‘No, I’m not injecting it. I can’t overdose on it,’” she said on camera at one point, later adding that she learned: “At the end of the day, if you do too much of anything, it’s gonna kill you.”
“I didn’t just overdose. I also was taken advantage of…. When they found me, I was naked, I was blue. I was literally left for dead after he took advantage of me. And when I woke up in the hospital, they asked if I had had consensual sex. There was one flash that I had of him on top of me. I saw that flash and I said, ‘Yes.’ It actually wasn’t until a month after the overdose that I realized, ‘Hey, you weren’t in any state of mind to make a consensual decision.’ That kind of trauma doesn’t go away overnight,” she shared, going on to say: “A lot of my past traumas came to a head that night.”
The next two episodes of the docu-series are slated for release over the next two weeks.